Time

I was once drown and alone,

with the tears and fears killing me slow.

I was always left here alone,

with all the feelings I'm afraid to show.

You came in a sudden without me knowing what's your role.

Leaving me a question that became just like a hole.

Clock ticks, time passed.

with us sitting there no idea.

More tricks, more blush.

Trying so hard to forget every trauma.

You came in the most unexpected time,

together with the most silly place.

Something made me love you in no time,

where I risk my heart and beated like a race.

I never thought it would be like this,

but everything became perfect with just one kiss.

I am sure as hell is willing to risk, 

everything I can just for you I won't miss.

You became too special, 

that I feel so emotional.

Keep me safely, 

and together we'll be happy.

13-12-24 - Hustinyana

Picture: Credits to the owner 

Very own Heaven version

I know that I've blogged about my room before, but yesterday... My mum and I planned that me and my brother must switched rooms. We swapped rooms because my room is getting very crowded due to my overloaded things and my mum got so annoyed because she used to stay in my room and she said she feels so suffocated.

So we ended up to the idea that my brother and I should switched rooms. So here's the outcome! :>

My forever lovely bed. :)

The organ is owned by my sister. But I used to play it whenever I feel like playing it. And Yes, I know the BASICS! Hahaha.

This is the closet area and the wall where you cannot put anything coz the door opens inwards.

And because I'm such a huge fan girl since late last year, I put all of my fan-girling-stuffs/posters on that wall. And it's facing my bed and it's an inspiration! Hahaha.

Here's a closer look! :) I'm actually buying the whole magazine, two issues per month just to have their posters. I know it's very silly of me but I just can't stop the urge. (Sorry!) =)))

Here's my study area. Where I spend most of my time, reading, making "Reminder's" and "To-Do-List's" and other stuffs. I really wanted to place the posters there, on that wall. So it'll be very inspiring to study, but my room will look crowded and not so nice if posters are everywhere.

So yeah, it was really an extreme effort switching rooms, like transferring a new home. But it's worth it. I got bigger space! :)

Justine xx

Standing up...

Hey!

 It's been a while since the last time I updated my blog. I got so busy but still, I don't want to give up my blog. Blogging helped me a lot (honestly). I just really got loads of stuffs to do. Like, I'm too busy with my school things, I'm too loaded fixing things (school-related-things) coz next term I'll be transferring to a new school. And I'm facing random feelings like, should I be excited or what and other "bla-bla" feelings. I also got busy fixing my bio-data and other papers because I'm applying and looking for a summer job. There're really plenty of things I have to do and things that I have to attend to. (Being an adult isn't cool) Haha!

So anyway, there are tons of random things that I really wanted to share time ater time. I just don't have the time and lust to open the laptop and make a blog about it. I totally think that I'm better now, coz blogging it out of my time already. And yes, blogging helped me a lot standing up by my own personal dilemma. So now, it's our sports break and I'm free from school. 1 week free. Yehey! So I'll do my best to update what I've missed and will try everything to update my blog and be updated like the way it must be. Let's catch up! :)

Justine xx

There's no place like home

It' christmas. Yes, it is. Christmas day! It's christmas everywhere. It's already Christmas in my country (Philippines). While me and my family are waiting for the clock to tick at 12. Then it's the 25th day of december.

Just few hours to go... But wait, why I can't feel the presence of Christmas? Where's the essence that I'm looking and longing for? Oh..

So here I am, my tummy is full, my gifts are opened, laying on my bed waiting for 12 o'clock. *sighs
Everybody wants to experience "White" christmas. Most especially those people that is from a country that don't experience snow. Those people from a warm country or so. Honestly speaking here... White christmas ain't cool. I feel so lonely for some reasons. I'm happy because I have the best family. We have lots of food served at the table, I received lots of gifts, but wait.. Is that what really christmas is?

I don't know... I miss christmas. The christmas in my country. The way we usually spend our christmas in our country. I can't really explain what I feel right now and last year. But.. Ugh, there's something missing.

I miss being busy and meeting lots of lots of lots of people and relatives in this season. On this occasion. I miss how I used to feel the essence of christmas. It seems like... It's incomplete. I don't know. How I wish I can fly to my country even just for two days.. The 24th and the 25th of december. I miss the warm hearted people in my country. I miss how sweet Filipinos are. I miss my home country. There's no place like home.

It's snowing whole day too. It's like what the heck... What's happenning? Can't go out and play outside because it's too cold. It's too dark. *sighs! Until when will it be?

My emotions are so mixed. I miss someone I shouldn't miss as of the moment. I never expect that I'll be longing after that person this day. But I honestly slash unexpectedly miss you. And I know... Tomorrow is another day. :)


HAPPY CHRISTMAS PEEPS! Hope we are all happy! <3


Xoxo, Jusz! <3

Single? Dumped? Left? READ THIS!

The Single Girl's To Do List

I just wanted to share the story of the book that I've read. This book is one of the great books I've read. I'm a book worm, to be honest. I love reading books. I read books one after one. And as far as I can say, this book is blog worthy. So yeah, it's not a formal or a literally book review but maybe.. a "kind of" one. So here....

There's this girl named Rachel Summers that has been dumped by her boyfriend. Her boyfriend for 5 years. (Yeah, for 5 straight years.) Where she shares a flat with. They are live in partners for quite some time. (Or long enough for her to wait for his proposal.) The dumping started when.. Simon (her boyfriend) asked for some kind of a "space" or a break. It's like a time for themselves without each other. Rachel was kind of confused (Was he asking for a break up?). But Simon explained that it's not about breaking up. It's fine, nothing to worry about. He just needs time. Then they made the deal. It ended up being OKAY.

Few weeks have passed.. And Rachel's two bestfriends learned the "thing" and Rachel continously telling them that they are not broken up because they didn't broke up. And one day, after a month of that "break" slash "space" thing, Rachel waited Simon at the bar where he used to hang every friday night. Rachel talked to Simon, telling that the break and space thing is enough and beg Simon to go back home. But sadly, Simon told her... He just woke up one day and realized that Rachel isn't the one. "THE ONE"

**Honestly, is it really true that boys will just wake up one day realizing that the girl beside them is not "THE ONE"? The girl that they loved for a quite long time. The girl that they spent time with. The girl that used to be their everything. IS NOT THE ONE? But how? I just remembered what my mom told me before that.... Boys usuallydon't know what they have and what they really want. That sometimes they used to do silly things just because they are not sure what they really want. And they will just realize what they were looking for when it's too late. When it's gone. Mom told me that boys used to decide without thinking twice and whithout looking to other possible ways. Unlike us girls, we always tend to lean on and hope for the "WHAT IF's". Is it really true? Because this story made so much sense to me.

Back to the story....

(I won't share all the details. I want you to read the book if you like or really interested.)

So they broke up. While Rachel is trying to fix and trying to know every single detail of her "Why's" and hoping for her "What If's". Simon just told her that they are finish. She's not the one for him. And that's it. So because of the depression, stress and because of being hell'a sad, Rachel and her two bestfriends (Emelie the hot girl and Matthew the awesomest gay bestfriend ever) went to the pub and drink the random emotions away. Because Rachel loves doing a list of her Things-To-Do, they ended up the idea to do a list for Rachel until she'll become an officially Single Girl. (Note: Rachel has never been Single. She had a random guys before her 5 year relationship with Simon. Rachel hates to be by her own.) So the list is pretty awesome. (I guess)

Rachel is doing good after the break up thing because of the list. The list really helped a lot. A LOT. Rachel also realized that she can be by her own. No worries. No stress. She loves the idea of being FREE. So then, after quite some time, Simon called Rachel to tell her that... He was sorry. He's stupid. He just didn't know what he wants (something like that). That he wants to get back with Rachel. That he wants to get back to their very owned shared flat. That he wants to live with Rachel and get back the old life they've shared. (Just like the old times.) But Rachel being awesome, she refused Simon. (**And I admire her for that.) Simon was really sorry, but sorry, Rachel Summers don't want to get back with him.


This story made me wonder. And ranked my vote to my mom's saying to 10. Lol. I'm just wondering how could it be? Like how boys will just wake up and realizes that we, GIRLS are not the one for them? And why on earth they will just go back after they broke us into pieces like nothing just happened? Was it that so easy? Where did they get those guts? Like honestly, we, girls, always forget the pain because it's them that is more important. (If I'm not mistaken) But them.. How?

Did you ever wonder? Or it's just me?


I totally recommend this book, most especially to those who just broke up with their partner, and to those who still cannot move on. This story will help you think and realize what are the things that's MORE important in life.

It's written by Lindsey Kelk. "Single Girl's To-Do List"



Hope that everything I've just said and written made sense. Because it's all my REAL random thoughts. I just wanted to share. Hope you guys will read it. :>


Xoxo, Jusz! <3