Non-sense

Sometimes.. You just feel sad. Sometimes you feel so lonely. That you can't even explain how you feel and couldn't tell what's the reason.

Sometimes it's hard to be so strong, that people almost forgot you're also a human being.. Got hurt, got tired.. Sometimes it's hard to smile outside not knowing what you really feel inside. Sometimes it's hard to be independent enough, to handle everything.

I've got everything I needed. I always get what I wanted. I have everything someone might want to have.. But life doesn't end like that. Life doesn't flow that way. We're living in a world full of ups and downs. Full of inconsistency.

I just don't understand why everything has to fall this way.

Ugh.. I just feel sad. Knowing that there's nobody I can share this with. I have a nice family but I'm not the kind of person that will put my own issues to family matters. It's different. I'm a grown up. I know I can handle this on my own.. (I love my family so much. Mom supports me in every single way.)

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It's just that, sometimes being strong is tiring.. If I can just take one rest whole day then the next day everything will be okay.. Then I will. But.., it can't be. That's not the flow.

I don't understand why do you have to leave everytime something's fcked up. I don't understand why do you came back then suddenly you'll leave. I just don't.. One day you're there, one day there's no one there. What happen? What happen to the promises? To the songs that was dedicated? Is it really too easy to promise and just one snap to leave it all behind?

I don't understand how love flow that way.. I don't understand why people can ignore the true feelings that's so strong.

Why love can't be enough? Why there's always something more needed?

I know there's still the love, the feelings, the care and everything. It's just that.. Whenever you're in the middle of the tragedy.. It's me you always choose to let go.

(Parang kelan lang sabe mo di ka na mawawala ulit. Asan ka na ngaon? :( )

I know it's for my sake that's why you went away. I know it's for my own good. But, why we didn't even TRY to conquer them? Why we didn't even try at all? Why can't we face them while holding each others hands? Dba sbe mo.. Ikaw muna, kahit back up lang muna ako? Pero.. What happened? Am I not worth it?

Ugh!
I'm slowly teaching my self to accept that we're really not meant for each other. It's just kinda hard.. Maybe that's why I blogged about it. Because, it's just too difficult to hide it all along. It's the only time I burst out.

I know at the right time, I can accept and understand everything. I know someday, I will know the main reason why you're not for me. It takes time. Just time.



I promise, this will be the last. This will be the last. LAST. I'll start my self again.

Water is not flowing smoothly.. But I'll fight the waves to conquer and be strong to reach the shore at the right time.


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